Hi all,
it's vdae....kay kay..1 hr after vday. To all lovely ones out there who are blessfully attached, happy v day! And to all my wonderful friends..happy friendship day!
Being single on vday has never ever bothered me, till today. When i was young, vday used to be friendship day. We would exchange presents, go out for meals and it was a happy day. Even up till the jc days, we were still celebrating friendship day.
Haha, i think i was still very naive then. Marriage to me was a very simple thing. You fall in love and ta duh you get married. Sure, the will be some disagreements, some arguments but love will triump eh? The intense feeling will never fade, the love will still be there. But now that im older, Ive lost faith in marriage. I used to be someone who dreamt of getting married but kinda no longer. Am i wrong to say that theres no life after marriage? Marriage causes love to fail?Till now, i have yet to see a marriage that i deem successful. All the marriages that i have seen so far in life are those that i would not like to be in. Those divorced are divorced, those that are not no longer love each other.
As much as I lost faith in marriage, i cannot see myself alone in the future. 10? 20 years? sure i can stand being single. Meet up with friends, travel, pick up some hobbies. SOmetimes it will be difficult but i think i will be able to manage. After 20 years, what will happen then? When everyone has their own family to go to, where will i go? Theres one thing i really hate , that is going home only to find that my sisters/parents are all out. It's the one thing that i can say i dislike the most. If not for auntie seetha who i still can go and disturb disturb, i would have gone crazy. I am seldom the only one at home, perhaps maybe once or twice in my entire life? It was okay but for the rest of my life? I will just end up killing myself.
EIther way, i'm terribly screwed.