it has been quite a while since i last blogged, which ahem signifies that i have a busy social life! Ya right..attending lectures and tutorials, overcoming emo-ness..haiz.
Anyway, its starting to irritate me that i 'm so prone to emo-ing. The slightest setback puts me into a state of depression where i will start thinking about it day and night. I have reached a point where i'm avoiding everything that could potentially make me sad. i don't understand why i am unable to accept failure as part and parcel of life and that it is a necessity in life. It has stopped me from exploring the nouveau, for fear of failing and being disappointed in myself again and again. the fact that i am at the stage where work does not equate to success makes me feel even worse. haiz..this is so so shitty. ..i am often inspired..ambitioned by fantastical dreams, so eager for success, haha..but that is so often replaced instantly by a "dont be crazy la, confirm cannot de". Argh.
On a lighter note, today is the last day of the terrible exam period, which means...i will be free for the next 38 days. WoooHooooo....! People! Come, come pul-ease date me.
On a lighter lighter note, my aunt held her solemnization ceremony today. My goodness, it was such a joyous event that i kept smiling like an idiot, like a really crazy idiot. i know i will regret it when i get to see the photo. eh..but anyway, it was the first solemnization ceremony i've ever attended, ahah and im amused the informality of it. I always thought it was to be a serious,solemn affair where all are silent but the groom and bride, trying desperately not to faint..but ahah..maybe its just my dear family.
And of course, i was suddenly hit by the desire toget married. haiz.
